It's now 2:50 a.m. Sunday morning, and I've been awake since 1:20. This wakefulness in the middle of the night is not a new occurrence, but one that's been plaguing me for some time. The cause? Beats me. Label it what you will. I've tried to figure it out to no avail.
Tonight (this morning?) I'm trying a new tact. Instead of lying in bed trying, trying, trying to fall back asleep, but not being able to do so, and growing more and more upset as the time ticks by, I've decided to get up and do . . . something.
Staying in bed has only caused my mind to run at warp speed, coupled with ever-growing frustration, during these middle of the night wakeful periods.
The added incentive to get up and away from the discontent of not being able to sleep is that I now have the ability to use my computer at this time. (Hence, this post.) That was an impossibility up until this past week when we moved my desk from our bedroom into the kitchen.
Supposedly, it's not a good idea to have your desk and/or computer in the bedroom anyway, and I've always liked the idea of a homemaker's desk in a corner of the kitchen. Now I have it.
So far, the new arrangement is working out very much to my liking. And not solely because I can occupy myself in a way that feels better during these nocturnal wakeful hours, but because during the day being at my desk in the kitchen gives me the feeling of being more a part of the household goings-on than when I was at my desk secluded back in our bedroom.
But back to my inability to sleep soundly of a night and my new plan. At this stage of my life, I don't have to rise at any particular hour (although I admit I am at my most productive mornings and love getting up early of a day) so I am trying to convince myself that I can be up and awake as long as I feel like it in the middle of the night, then croggle on back to bed when and if I feel the need and sleep as long as I want in the morning. (Of course, this isn't possible each and every 24-hour period of the week, but most of the time it is.)
Or . . . I can stay up all night long and slide right into the next day if that is what my body is telling me I can do.
Then I should be tired enough the following night (still with me here?) to sleep like a log, all through the night. And perhaps break the disturbing cycle I'm in.
Bottom line, I need to be more proactive in finding a way of breaking this cycle of waking in the middle of each night and totally frustrating myself by not being able to fall back asleep. Well, my plan sounds good on paper. Let's hope it might work.
It has occurred to me that it's a good thing I've never been one to raid the refrigerator in the middle of the night. If I stick with this new plan, think of the calories I could pack in. However, true confessions here, I am currently getting close to the bottom of a glass of wine which has gone down quite easily.
I'd be interested in knowing if any of you have sleeping difficulties and what you've done to deal with them. Care to share?