No, I didn't start imbibing on New Year's Eve liquid cheer early. But I have recently been functioning with a muddled mind. I think it has something to do with taking time off from our taxing (on mind and body) days in this past year of remodeling while at the same time still struggling to maintain some semblance of order in our otherwise full lives.
In the past couple of weeks of self-imposed, much needed down time, my body and mind have both sorta collapsed. (Although some may say my mind didn't have far to go.)
It's a different feeling to wake up in the morning and not have a list 12" long of things to be done or to even wake up and not want to make such a list. I find myself floating through the days but not really doing anything. Or caring. What did I accomplish today? Nuthin'. Yeah? So what?
My body wants to do nothing more than sleep. Now that I have the time to do things I've been putting off for months and months . . . like quilting or fun sorting/arranging in the pantry . . . I can't muster up the oompf to do so. (I haven't even baked a pie in ever so long, fer Pete's sake!)
But worry thee not, it's not that I'm depressed. It's more that I'm in some state of limbo that needs to be lived through before proceeding. And I'm not in the mood to exert any energy to work at pushing through this state. I'm suspecting it's nothing more than needing a decompression period with a little re-energizing and re-charging thrown in.
I've had short spurts lately where I've managed some contemplation concerning all kinds of things, but I can't seem to hold the brain cells on task long enough for the successful follow-through needed. As a result I have no New Year's resolutions or even a summary of happenings in 2011 to share. I greatly admire you other bloggers who have gone back over the year and gained a concrete sense of accomplishment by doing so.
But enough of this self-absorbed babbling. As they say, this too shall pass. I think the wisest thing for me to do is not fight it and just try to be. (Something that 99% of the time eludes me completely. Always thinking ahead to what needs to be done next, ya know. Arrrgh.)
The original point of this post, although I think I may have lost it before I even started, was to sincerely wish all of you a very Happy New Year. I hope your new year is filled with the joy of living and the love of giving.
See ya next year!
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Well Mama Pea, perhaps more of us would benefit from living in the moment as you are doing. And if it helps to recharge, then by all means keep it up. Wishing you all the best in 2012.
Mama Pea, I think you worked so hard for so long, you both need and deserve this time off. If you know you are not depressed, then I say just go with the flow. I'm sure you'll be back to baking pies and other assorted goodies in no time. May you have a wonderful 2012.
~~Lori
Happy New Year Mama Pea....I'm toasting my wine glass to you and saying...Here's to rest!
Ah yes the slump. By definition it's the bump at the end of a hard road (my definition). Lucky you know that the slump doesn't last forever and waiting it out is usually the best way to get rid of it. Of course life can intrude and force the slump out but it's always best to enjoy the slump as best you can.
A very Happy New Year Mama and Papa Pea! I know your New Year will be filled with exciting and wonderful things.
Happy New Year to you, too! (I'm glad you've been able to take such an extended rest. It's smart of you.)
Ah yes, the ever popular blahs! We have all had them at one time or another, I'm sure. Go sleep, go sew, go eat, go read, go do whatever you feel like at the moment. We all agree that you needed this downtime. You will spark back up again soon enough when the time is right. Meanwhile, may you and your family have a happy and especially healthy 2012!!! Looking forward to reading your blog entries in the coming year (including those promised for your quilt blog ........ but seriously, no pressure!!!) .
Thanks, Jane, but I know I have to get back "at it" soon. Reading your blog always energizes me . . . and makes me tired at the same time! ;o]
Lori - I think something may be happening . . . I took a pie crust out of the freezer this afternoon!
dr momi - Wait for me for that toast! I'm about to have my first glass of wine in about 15 minutes!
Happy New Year, Mama Pea!
I agree with Jane-live for the moment ,hope you get your spunk back,maybe its the un-normalnwess of things ,CM,not working right now,no snow no GARDEN,at least if you can't get a little of the white stuff in MN,can we at least garden. I've had a not so normal day myself,but for me thats nothing new.I did not see the need to check on my bank acct so much recently cus i knew I was broke but than I called at 3:00 am [ couldn't sleep] and they said they charged my #----ARE YOU READY--A WHOPPING $400.00 FOR OVER DRAFT FEES-only got partly straighten out cus I said I would do bodily harm if they did not put the money back-so at least I'm not in jail for the new year---so dear friend I only mean in most sincere way"Happy New Year"
I think your mind and body have the right idea:) You and Papa Pea have been going full tilt on the remodel, and now it's time for some much needed rest:) Enjoy it, spring is right around the corner!! Happy New Year!!
Your body and mind know when to relax... good for you for listening. Happy New Years!
Sparkless - Ah-ha! Now I know about "the slump!" And bump. We shall all of us hearty bloggers overcome!
JJ - Smart? Okay, I'll keep extending the rest.
Karen L. - Dear Karen, I know you're not pressuring me! I enjoy your prickly prodding! Keep it up.
Mooberry Farmwife - Happy New Year to your and your happy family!
judy - I'm so glad you're not spending New Year's in jail! I say a pox on overdraft charges for the year 2012!
Stephanie - The way time continues to rocket by, you're right! Spring will be here before you know it.
Ruth - I do try to listen . . . but I don't think I'm making much sense lately! Happy New Year!
Have a Happy New Year. Enjoy your 'fuzzy brain' time. You deserve it. I am actually quite familiar with the feeling. While we're usually quite go-go-go sometimes we need to decompress and recharge by not doing anything at all. Have a few more days and you'll be ready to tackle something. (trust me, I'm a mental health professional- eeek!!)
Judy
I think that's where that good old fashioned day of rest has it's benefit. We need times to rest physically, mentally, and emotionally. Holidays too. Holy = set apart, i.e. days and times set apart from the usual routine. They are important to our overall wellbeing! Have a restful day Mama Pea, and I wish you a happy and productive New Year.
Going through some of the same myself...and have no motivation to remedy it, seems like. lol
So, rest it is.
Happy New Year !!
Judy - I plan on looking for a jar of adrenaline (or maybe box of dynamite) this afternoon because even though I still feel depleted mentally and physically, I think my muscles are starting to atrophy. Gotta get moving . . . I think just that will maybe give me the jump start I need.
P.S. Good to know I've got a mental health professional to call on!
Leigh - Same good New Year wishes to you, Leigh. Yep, pushing too much too hard for too long (neglecting holidays and needed "days of rest") has taken its toll. Must be better about maintaining that important balance.
Akannie - We shall all overcome. New year, new day, new Energizer Bunny batteries . . . we'll be okay.
lol---you kill me--dynamite
You have articulated perfectly how I've been feeling since about October! Maybe there is some cyclical force we are being subjected to? I know we aren't the only ones this year, either... strange!
judy - Got any??
Erin - Yup, if I really let myself, I could think it was something being dropped on all of us from evil forces out in the atmosphere. But it'll take more than evil forces to keep us strong homestead-y type woman down. CHARGE!!
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